Wednesday, March 7, 2012

I'm Sorry

I have been struggling for the last 14 months with an issue. Something I have been keeping bottled up all this time. I have decided that the only way to deal with it and maybe move on, is to let it out.
So, tonight I am linking up with PHYO with Shell.

                                       I'm Sorry

I am sorry that I walked away from you after dating for three years.
I am sorry that I broke your heart, when I walked away.
I am sorry that you thought I never looked back. Because I did, constantly.
I am sorry that I never told you how much I appreciated
      you were always there for me, over the years.
I am sorry that I never realized how much you loved me.
I am sorry that when you would come into my place of work
      I would sometimes act like I didn't know you.
I am sorry that I was never there for you when you needed me and
     especially when you needed me the most.
I am sorry that I was never willing to try and work things out between us.
I am sorry that I never told  how much I really loved you  and I always will.
I am sorry that I have spent more time visiting you and talking to you
       in the last 14 months than I have in the last 20 years.
I am sorry for any part I had in your decision to walk away from everyone
       who loves you.
I am sorry that our last kiss was right before they closed your casket.
I am sorry


  1. Oh such a heavy heart. This is really sad, but I hope just writing it down and letting it out gave you some relief.

    Just be grateful you had the time you did with this person. Remember that.

    1. Jamie,
      Thank you, it did help some to write it down and let it out. I had been keeping a lot of things about this bottled up for too long. I have decided I need to take it one day at a time for the healing to take place.

  2. I think it's really amazing that you were able to open up on your blog. We all say that we "keep it real" on our blogs, but it can be hard to post about the serious stuff. I'm glad that writing it down helped a little. Sending prayers and warm thoughts your way!

    1. Thank you, Amy. It has been hard to keep things real. Sometimes I think that people don't care about what I really have to say. Then, I decide, "it's my blog, that is why I started it; to say what I want to and get things out that I want to get out."