As I was reading through some of the other posts, this morning and then reading some of their past posts on their blogs, I came across one (here) that really stuck with me and decided this is my Pour Your Heart Out post. First, I am a new blogger and have no followers. Sometimes I think I just blog to vent and no one wants to deal with that on a daily basis. So, I am just learning, so bare with me.
I check in here every week, but have never posted; until now. I am still not sure if I want to do this, but we all need somewhere to turn once in a while.
I used to be happy. I want to be happy again. But I know that the only way to do that is to take my life back! Start doing what I need to do to make me happy and stop worrying about everyone else and their feelings and their wants. I am the only one who will always be here for me. I have to stop counting on everyone else and start counting on myself. I sit in this house, depressed, thinking what is wrong with me? I will tell you, get off your ass and get a life. Stop dwelling on the bad and start focusing on the good, because it is there, You just need to clean it off and get it back! Then my ahah moment hit me! There are many opened doors, but you will not find them if you are just hiding out and not looking for them. They are not just going to jump open because you them to. And just because there is an open door, doesn't mean it is your open door. What open door is right for one person is not necessarily the right open door for you.
So get off your ass and go find the opened door that is right for you! You might have to go through that door alone or you might be lucky enough to find that person who shares that same open door to walk through it beside you and share the journey together. But, you will never know until you find that door.
Hope to see you all soon. And thanks for letting me PYHO!